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Alright, I think I'm ready to talk about what's gone down in the past 24 hours.

All yesterday all my coworkers kept asking if I'd heard from Robert, if the trip had been cancelled yet, etc. For those of you not in the know, Robert's boyfriend is constantly sick, though he does little to take care of himself so I find it hard to muster up compassion at this point. I've tried to get Robert to go with me places before, just day trips, but Paul has always gotten sick just before we leave, prompting Robert to cancel on me. We got to late afternoon so I thought this would be the exception.

Nope. While I'm trying to cover both desks just after 5, Robert calls and lets me know that Paul is in the hospital with pneumonia, but if he gets the house cleaned that night we could still go in the morning. I'm not entirely thrilled about this, but whatever it takes. So I go over there and he's worrying about the yard, but there is a lot of dirt in the house and then he drops on me that Paul's actually in ICU. So right there I know Robert won't leave for 3 days. He's apologetic, but whatever. I still plan on going.

Until I tell my mom. She for some reason gets all freaked out about me driving there alone, even though at my old job I made monthly trips to Hobbs which was 2 1/2 hours away and Socorro's just a little over 3. I mean it's NM so anytime you leave any city it's a big old stretch of nothing, so I seriously dont' know what the deal is. There's expected storms but I planned to leave fairly early in the morning. And I'm taking her newer car which was just in the shop, so there shouldn't be breakdowns.

 

But then she decides that if Robert doesn't, she will, even though she has Potter's Guild coming up and it's exceedingly last minute, so then I felt guilty and weird about that and it just got very frustrating that I couldn't just do this. And then she made me feel guilty for spending $80 on gas just to go see a video game, but hello, my friend is up there too and we were going to go shop at Alb. So when I left her house I told her I'd just cancel the whole thing and cried on the drive home. I fell asleep on the couch, but after I woke up and went to proper bed, I got angry.  So right now I'm deciding if I should just tell Mom I'm going regardless. I already packed up most of my stuff but she's with a friend so I haven't heard from her this morning. On the other hand, I do see storm clouds in the distance, but I"ve driven from Portales on ICE so what's some rain? But then she'll get all worried and she told me last night she's have panic attacks in her own house thanks to my dad and brother being around so much, so I'd feel guilty about that, but George and I already took our days off and I feel bad leaving him hanging, too.

So here I sit with a half-filled suitcase waiting for a sign of should I stay or should I go.

What's gone down in the last hour...

Mom finally got home, but it was already noon which means I wouldn't get into Socorro until 330 at best. But I called and told her I still wanted to go and then she sounded all hurt and sad....but then I called George to see exactly how bad the weather was up there and if maybe we could just push it off for a couple weeks, if vacation time would still be good, etc. I mean I had already pretty much killed one day and I wouldn't want to drive back in the dark, so that would kill more of Monday than planned as well, so I was pretty much left with little hangout time at this point anyways. Well, while I was talking to him, Mom called back and said I could go...but still that she would go with me. I finally asked her just what was so daunting about this trip and she seems to think I'm driving through Deliverance or something where there's no people on the road at all, or god knows what. I mean hell half of the Hobbs trip is farm roads that I wouldnt' see anyone on for 30 mins at a time. So I'm just going to take some time to instill this in her. George is coming down during thanksgiving and said he could bring his 360 and he'll have a long stretch for Christmas vacation. I think that will be enough time for Mom to get over this irrational fear of me driving to the west. I was waiting for her to say she got chased around by a haunted semi out there or something for all this fear of that road.

And if I wait a bit, George will be able to unlock everything and I'll get to see all the endings and bonuses and stuff anyways.  Yeah I realize I'm 26 and pussing out because of my mom, but I don't think anyone can say they haven't acqueisced to mom-guilt at some point in the past. I'll just wait til she's in a better frame of mind for me leaving. I'm definately doing the next one alone though. I wasn't in a very good frame of mind to be visiting people today anyways. -_- This whole thing has left me deeply agitated at the only two people I have down here, so....anyone know of a good city to move to, per chance?

That dang slippery bjd slope...

I know it's going to sound crazy, but Tessa kept me from going ballistic these past few days. Her sweet, serene face just calms me and being able to turn my focusing to buying her eyes and dressing her has served as a good distraction. I absolutely don't regret buying her at all, although it is leading me to buying more for her and wanting to fix up the other two bjds and maybe add a few more dolls to the mix as well...*cough* Anyways, her clothes got waylaid somehow and while those are also worth an angry rant, I'll keep the tone of this one positive. Here's some pics I took at work on Friday:





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The wig I bought ended up fitting her! So 8/9 works well for her. Unfortunately, I don't like how there's so much bangs since I love her eye makeup so I'm still shopping around for another one since even the hairclips have a hard time keeping them at bay and I'm no stylist. I'll probably keep the brown though. And her eyes are a really dark blue, but they end up looking black and demonic half the time. I just bought some bright green eyes and a light blue pair and I'm still shopping around for a purple so I can decide which are for her. The dress is actually my American Girl Kailey's dress. And the shoes I luckily asked for in Missmollymayhem's dollmore order so she wasn't barefoot. I have some blue converse from that This is Me doll, but have no earthly idea what I did with that thing. Oh well, now I get to go shopping for some nice black shoes for her. :) She totally needs a fancy gown, too, right?