Suck

[zallia]

How does everything get so fucked up so quickly? The things I've so been looking forward to the most these past few months have now become some of the biggest grievances in my life. Let's see, first I can't install my harddrive because I don't have the Windows XP installation disc since they don' t fucking give them out when you buy a computer. I finally got my car CD player and now I"ve come to realize I won't be able to install it myself and no one I know can or knows someone who can so I'm going to have to pay another 40 dollars to have it put in, but god knows when I can do that since I have two fucking presenations on Satuday, the papers for both of those to do plus another assignment. Also, it seems my Ohio trip is cancelled or at least on the back burner. I can't get ahold of Tatton. My mom was bugging me the other day about going so I called Robert and told him not to bother getting the plane tickets, but I didn't realize til I told him that that he said he would get me the NM to Alb. ones tomorrow. So I just bothered him for nothing. But maybe I could have made it work since the plane tickets aren't any more now than they were when I checked. And it would have been just me since he said he wouldn't be able to go which would have been another hurdle. But I guess it's too late now huh? I got Mega64 dvd today, though, but even that's not enough to compensate for how shitty I feel right now. I guess if I could postpone the trip to Ohio I could have some money saved up to paint my car and get a video camera but even my hopes for the Amazing Race feel futile at this point. Passports are fucking 80 dollars plus another 10 for pictures. George had talked about going to Colorado for an anime con but then he was waivering on that, so I guess there goes that fucking idea too. I swear to god, ya'll, this year has been so fucking shitty. Even works been suck cause I can't keep my damn fucking mouth shut and when I try and do something nice by buying a little something for everyone I somehow end up with one short even though I counted correctly while I was buying them. I don't know what to get my family for Christmas, I still haven't gotten most of my out of town stuff shipped off (Tatton, colors!!). I dunno. I just feel so fucking defeated right now. There's other stuff I won't even bother bitching about on here. Anyways I just needed to unload I guess. Back to crying. Ja.