Nothing ever works out

[zallia]

Alone again tonight, while everyone else goes out. They call me RIGHT AFTER I finish dinner. I wouldn't mind going, but geez, a little notice would be nice. Eh, it's probably a subconcious move to keep me from going. Plus, I think I make two of the people uncomfortable and they're just too nice to say anything. And five's a crowd, esp. at a restraurant. No, I guess it's just best this way. I suck in group settings esp. with people I don't know well. I'm broke cause I have no impulse control. I'm tired cause I stay up too late and put things off. I'm just a fucking stupid shitty person all around. I think I'll just do my best to stay away from people from now on, more so than I have been. My having friends never ends well and I can never seem to keep them, or do well by them. I'm just too fucking selfish and lame.