Why?

[zallia]

Why do bad things happen all at once?
Always, always.

It looks like I'm failing my summer class. I missed the first two assignments and so have zeros for both and for one of only 2 exams I got a D. I tried so hard on it too and thought I did so well!! It makes me so mad or sad or something.
I just got demodded on IGN too. And of course I get PMed about it, but can't see it cause they cut off my subscription. Gee, thanks guys. Bleh, oh well. I guess I'll go back if someome adopts me, but I won't ask around for it.
And it seems like either everyone's found a boyfriend or girlfriend or those that haven't are having an especially hard time with it. I keep thinking that leaving home will solve all my problems, but will it really? I'm already doubting if I'll get the apartment cause I"m not sure if I qualify which will open up whole new problems. Of course, they can't tell me until the end of July. I think I'll do better at my homework cause there'll be no distractions, but if I don't pass this class i'm not sure i'll even be able to take my fall ones. And I'll know nobody there and there's no guarantee that anyone'll like me better up there than they do down here. I think I'm just an unlikeable person. Not that I try to change that or anything...I can't wait to see what kind of crap tomorrow brings. Maybe another friend will cut me off, or I'll get sick or some other fun thing.
I feel so worthless right now...

Comments

[serisun.livejournal.com]

I would have called you today to see if you wanted to hang out but unfortnately i have relatives in town. Relatives destroy everything. *sigh*

Don't be afraid to call me up or call Leo and Angie. They'll hang out with you if you give them a chance. The worse they (or i) could say is that we have to work. :P

Sorry about the class tho... can you ask the professor for extra credit work or anything? It really sucks when you think your doing well and the grades say otherwise. Don't let it get to your personal worth tho, your more then a grade in a class, your Zallia Sempai. Don't forget that.

And I'm sure you'll make a friend in portales, besides its not that far away of a drive. We can visit each other on weekends and stuff. ^_^; if i ever have a car again... hehe.

Cheer up Zallia Sempai and keep hope in tomorrow... it's got just as much a chance to be good as to be bad.

[zallia.livejournal.com]

Eh, I don't like bothering people with my problems. That's why I just rant about the big stuff here and bitch about everything minor to everyone else. *^^ I'd just ditch my relatives. They or my family wouldn't care. And it's okay, I understand needing rest time. I don't function well on Sundays cause that's my wind-down day. And I don't think I even have Angie's phone number. Maybe Leo's. But I dont' feel I know them well enough to just call them. I feel weird just calling the people I knew in high school. *^^ 'sides I'm sure they have better things to do.
Thanks for all the good thoughts. I know all your stuff will work out too. I worked hard on this assignment and I better get a hundred!!

[syd100881.livejournal.com]

First of all, I apologize for intruding on your journal.

You are not worthless, and you never have been. I know you're going through a hard time right now.

There is not much to say for classes. All you can do is try your best. Noone can ever do better than their best, nor does anyone have the right to expect more than that. If you give it your best and you don't succeed, at least you should not have any regrets.

As per the demod, Tal is probably just having PMS right now. Don't let them get under your skin. I am sure one of the many users at the PSCB will adopt you soon enough.

You are not unlikable. If I may say so, you just don't fit the status quo. And lord knows the world hates anything different from the status quo.

For most of the rest, just think positive. No, it won't change the cosmic forces that be. But when you think negatively you often miss opportunities because you think they won't work so why bother trying. So keep your chin up and think positive.

Once again, sorry for intruding on your journal.

[zallia.livejournal.com]

I don't care if you come here. It's public terrain. I'm just surprised you keep up with it. Thanks for all the pick-me-ups. I do need to keep your advice in mind. I surely don't mind not being in the satus quo that's for damn sure. ;)

[syd100881.livejournal.com]

"Thanks for giving me the link to your journal. Glad I was trustworthy enough. ;P

Anyway, Zallia, I think you are a bit too hard on yourself. Slow down, don't stress out too much. Think positive. I like your personality, and I don't think you're an unlikable person at all. Sure, I don't know you in real life, but you can't be THAT much different, right? So don't be getting those crazy thoughts in your head

As for the demod, you got adopted, so you're not cut off from the PSCB, or anything. Plus, I doubt you'll lose your modship forever. Perhaps you need to make a triumphant return to the FF board?

I don't know what to say on the classes, really. As long as you're making effort, than that's all you have to worry about. If not, then get in gear.

Try not to be too hard on yourself in the future. I do that sometimes, and it's never a good thing. I avoid it whenever possible." ~ Brian

Since he couldn't post it, I offered to do so for him.

[brian-the-brain.livejournal.com]

Well, looks like I won't have to use Syd again. ;P


Thanks for giving me my account. :) I'll drop by your journal page more now, and I'll work on my own journal every now and then as well... ;)