Well, now that I'm here, I'm suddenly feeling shy. Though I suppose I shouldn't since no one will see this anyways. It shall just be a place to rant and rave and maybe entertain a few people I deign worthy enough to come here. I should be writing a paper, but of course I'm practicing avoidance behaviour and doing this instead. My throat hurts, my eyes are still blurry from an evening of crying, but I need to stay strong. I've done really good the past couple of years and I can't slip back into old ways. Hehe, I told myself I wasn't going to put my real thoughts and feelings and bitch about the things that are really bothering me. I have to keep in mind people will see this. It's hard though, I suppose. We all need an outlet. Time to go modify the journal and then I'll probably make the third entry for the night. Hehe, ja ne for now!