Damn you psychological problems...

[zallia]

Well, 2 days to go and that panic is starting to set it. My lungs feel tight, my chest hurts and there's a horrible pit in my stomache cause I just know it's all going to go horribly wrong. Even though mentally I know it's usually okay, I always go through this for everything major. And it's times like these when I'm put in charge of something big that I just know I'm going to end up all OCD like my crazy grandma because I have to have everything in order, everything listed out, and everything has to be planned for and perfect. Robert will attest to that when I yelled at him for placemat settings at our office christmas party.  Yeah...not one of my finer moments. 

But I'm already loathing that costume because it's so incomplete and home-sewn that I know I'm going to look like crap compared to everyone else there. And trying to figure out outfits for everything we may or may not do...I don't even know where this fear of people judging me comes from. My mom's always been pretty cool about that and I was only marginally picked on in elementary school. Even the damn dolls I want to be in the most perfect oufits and worry about what people will think of them. *sigh* Stupid brain problems. Or emotions. Or whatever this is coming from.

On the plus side, I did come across my Clow Book last night. I didn't even try looking for it, but while I was looking for my backpack, there it was on the bookshelf. lol Didn't even think to look for it with other books! I think I'll still keep up the search for the wand or kero though if I have time since they're more iconic.

Comments

[xarx.livejournal.com]

Honestly the costumes are a fifty fifty split among those that worked really hard and those that are half assed. At worst you just won't have people stopping you every five feet asking to take your picture.

Walking around with Dragon in his digimon costume, I forget it's name but it was the yellow fox looking one, it was kind of cool that people liked his costume but it took us half an hour just to cross a room.

[zallia.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's true. I think I'll just look fat in it rather than look bad or anything. And I just wont' look *exactly* like the character.

[serisun.livejournal.com]

Xarx is right. If they don't think much of your costume; they just don't take your picture. I've never seen anyone actually rip on someone for an amateur costume. If they did.. they'd get jump kicked in the head. People at all the anime cons I've been to have always been extremely friendly & very nice.

And don't worry about the *exactly* thing. You'll notice that even those people who make really awesome costumes don't pull off *exactly*. That's because no living human being looks like an anime character. Physics won't support it.

[zallia.livejournal.com]

I think I'm more worried about people not know who I'm supposed to be. I dunno, CCS may not even be well-known anymore except with older folks like me. :p At least I found the wand! The sound still works too!

[tonberrygrrl.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

If you feel that your costume is not up to snuff, why not leave it behind this time? You could always work on it when you get back, and bring something much more perfect and complete to the next con.

[zallia.livejournal.com]

Much as I would like to, I think Naomi would murder me in my sleep if she went through all the trouble of making hers and I didn't have mine. But then she's got like 5 other costumes, so she would manage...

*hugs back* Thank you!! :D

[serisun.livejournal.com]

Its 4 costumes. 2 of which are nothing more then regular clothes I own spiced up with either cat ears or me just calling it an anime costume.

My Mai Lin costume looks probably worse then your sakura costume because your mom actually knows how to sew where as I fake it. If you want, I'll take pictures of the horrible seams I've done on it.

And if you don't bring your costume; I will kill you. Your are right. I will kill you. :P Because this is our only group themed costumes & we both went through a ton of trouble for this.

[zallia.livejournal.com]

Eh, I think she made me sew the apron, so don't worry about that....
Yeah, i'm doing better. Just last minute jitters.

[missmollymayhem.livejournal.com]

*hug*
I get that way, too. Make your lists, make your plan. It helps. Or you could be a wimp like me and take a little pill when things get too overwhelming :P

[zallia.livejournal.com]

*hugs back* Thank you!! :D

I'm glad I'm not the only neurotic one. I don't have any little pills though. Well I guess my Calms Forte, but if I'm not a big ball of tension, I won't get anything done. ^_^